from minute to minute
as the clock ticks and they turn into hours
Losing Mom, has so far, been the most painful thing I have ever experienced.
It has only a few days since she passed,
but I can already tell that this is a major life altering event,
that it is difficult to put into words.
Tears fall freely
there's a lump in my throat that does not seem to go away...
I've been eating comfort food, drinking gin and tonics
and have stopped counting WW points.
I have considered not getting dressed and staying my pj's all day...
But instead, I get up have a cafe creme
hop in the shower
put on my make up
head over to Mom's condo to sort through her things.
there is some comfort in action and busyness
to be in Mom's condo
surrounded by her things
feels like home
but when I look toward her chair
she is not there...
my heart aches
I notice that the garden is awakening from its winter slumber
right on cue as it does every year at this time.
The snowdrops are blooming.
Sunny yellow daffodils
Moistened by the rain
Nature reminds me of the cycles of life
Life goes on...
as surely as the spring bulbs open
taking each day
thinking of Mom
and all she has done
to make our lives so special
her strength, wisdom, kindness and grace
will help guide me
as I walk along this painful path of grief
in her honour
I will put one foot in front of the other
one step at a time.
I found this card in mothers desk drawer...
She kept this card
there were no others...
I wept when I opened the card
with tears rolling down my cheeks
a moment in the silence
this card is one of the treasures that I will keep
the message so close to my heart
of my wonderful mom
Thank you for all your comments on the previous post.
I am overwhelmed by your kind and supportive thoughts
they mean a lot
especially at a time like this...